kairos: "God's time"

kairos was a bit disappointing. it was still great but not as amazing as everyone said it would be. so there are 5 kairos groups and i went on the 3rd one. people that went on 1st and 2nd one said it was life changing and simply amazing. i dont like to get my hopes up or expect too much in anything because well, i dont like to be disappointed. but maybe deep inside i was really really excited for it because everyone hyped it up so much. the "kairos secrets" were cool and i cried (just like everyone said EVERYONE cries at kairos) at some parts. but they weren't enough to make this once in a lifetime experience unforgettable. i mean, i can come back with alumni to lead it if i want to but then i dont want to do that. sigh, i dont know. i heard that our kairos group was the worst, in terms of people not really opening up with their small group, not getting emocional, but taking things really lightly and almost fooling around. like we were almost forced to go up and share our opinions whereas other kairos group people volunteered to go up, shared their thoughts sincerely, shed some tear, etc. it was a lot more religious than i thought it would be. i know the retreat is about spending time with God but the whole Catholic religion and the rules suffocates me. some of the personal talks felt like lectures..i've been dealing with religion classes since 6th grade and i guess it never hits me because i'm a Christian. it's soooo much better. it was still good and i had a lot of fun, relaxing time getting to know people better, some i've known since middle school but made friends with.