i don't like where this is going!
if you act like you care
then i'll care


caring is creepy!!!

i think i fell into that hole again.
fail

so..........life isn't too great these days.
tooooo many things going on. too many to worry about. and these aren't the petty little things that people would say 'oh psh, that's nothing.' i'm talking legit, deep, real talk here..i would usually go through this phase and say 'everything will be alright, it always is' but i can't say the same these days. i just can't wait til school is over. literally cannot wait. it's scary how much i hate school. i'll still try to enjoy last few months left and try to go to all the school activities...but it's really stupid/naive of me to forget about the problem and laugh/joke around at school when friends make me laugh. approximately 2 seconds later laughing, i'm thinking to myself 'i really shouldn't be laughing. my ass is at stake.' HOW did it come this far, i don't know. i blame senioritis; it really is because of senioritis. i don't take life seriously and it's biting me in the butt. family, the living situation, school, future, my faith, money..i need help
it's been rough past few months

EASE THE PAIN GOD and PLEASE help my mom. and especially my dad. no changes ???????????

i need to start praying more. sigh

i'm actually gonna try now.
:] we can get through this.
no more wishy-washyness/laziness

couple things,

• i tried tumblr...it' confusing
• i feel so drained/empty these days
• my sister came home from korea to stay for 2 weeks :) yay
• essay for short fiction class is due in about 6.5 hrs. SCREWED
• i've been so tired these days. barely no sleep=sad stella
• sometimes i feel so secluded from my group of friends from school. they're indeed very hard to get close to.
• i am a terrible terrible student. ok grades but horrible student. senioritis is literally destroying me GAHHHH