haha

i think i'm lonely. it's definitely not the i-need-a-boyfriend-i'm-desperate kind of loneliness. i feel like there is something missing. there's like a big gush of wind in my heart as emo as that sounds. maybe it's my sister and my dad being gone, maybe it's God. maybe it's the change of season. maybe it's my longing for true friends. not that there's any problem or drama. but i feel like i need to be around people; i've been independent and distant for so long. i want to sit down and have heart to heart conversations